It's been a long time. For some reason and somehow I wandered back here.
One of the big things that confused me was the new DA logo. "What's this weird green X site?" I was kinda glad to find out that the logo was changed only recently, that I hadn't really been gone for
that long (I pop in to look at art from time to time).
I've somehow managed to whittle down my 2k+ DA messages back down to a reasonable number (a bit surprised it wasn't more). Actually, I think I've looked through them all even if I haven't deleted them.
Well, anyways, there were several piled up journals along the lines of "Hi! Oh my gosh, I haven't been here in a while!" It's actually kind of been nostalgic. I went a bit internet stalkery and went around looking at people's twitters, tumblrs, and what not to see what they're up to. I tangented and started also checking up on other people who I was big fans of and idolized when I first joined here. It's strange to see where people are. Some have changed their "art genre" (such as no longer drawing anime/manga styled things), some kids are now professionals, some have moved on to other things, some have disappeared, and a few are still doing the same things but of course improved. Many though seem to have left DA. In the sense of DA being a main place. Or at least it
feels that way. Seems like tumblr's quite popular (I haven't really figured that place out).
Change is inevitable of course, but spending the past day or so going through all this DA stuff I think what's hitting me more is how much
time has pasted. I joined DA nearly 11 years ago. I discovered it December 2003 and joined January 2004 (old account
Kimmaii - wow I still remember these short codes). I did ATCs/ACEOs in 2009~2010, which is like
four-five years ago! Going through other people's galleries I have little markers in my head, like "Oh, this was about when I started watching you.*looks at date* OH MY GOODNESS!". Or "I remember, that was around when~".
Personally my art has grown so much. I'm still drawing periodically (life happens as it does). I used to beat myself up inside, comparing myself with others, criticizing myself for not drawing more often at what not, but I've realized that I don't draw daily not because I'm lazy and loafing around and just wasting my time. I've been doing other stuff in life (school being a big one), and those things were always things worth spending time on. Art was never my number one priority, and I don't know if it ever will be or if I want it to be. It took a while for me to be okay with this. And now I'm happier for it.
Well I just wanted to ramble these thoughts out.
I dunno, I guess just feeling nostalgic. Thinking about and missing a time when I used to go on DA daily. And I guess seeing in others how life has effected them. How people grow closer, grow apart, go do different things on their own different paths. ... Maybe it's just that time of year
I guess to end on a happier note. Happy Holidays~
